just listen to my voice, I ain't got something nice to say to you now,
you wanna hug me, you wanna love me and you want to touch me,
but just when you feel like to, and no when I WANT TO!!
It's so difficult for me to stay out of trouble lately... Not that I look for it but for some reason I keep making myself so so happy and then so so sad. Maybe I need to go from one extreme to the other to live my life. Anyhow I guess this time I'm about to fall again and I have realized I need to keep myself away from cute bouncers all covered in tatoos and funy accent, even more when I know for a fact he is a "whore" and he has a girlfriend, and he calls me only when he wants to, and yes, believe it or not, it breaks my heart because I think we could be perfect together!
For the last week my rutine has become work, gym, reading, walking and BOUNCER. And I now is wrong and I know I need to stop it, but is hard. Is hard to say no when is 10 in the morning and I'm riding the bus to work listening to the Foo Fighters playing out loud on my ears "... a little bit of resooooooooooooolve is what I need now, pin me down, show me hoooooooooooow...". I wish I knew how to say NO, but in days like today, when you go to work and they send you home, so finally you are forced to walk all the way back because the bus won't come for another hour, and then BOUNCER offers a ride, I can't say no!
Is terrible to realized how obssesed you can become when you know somebody else is gonna marry the one who is suppoused to be YOUR husband...
